After praying for Rob to find Jesus you ask the Lord to reveal to him what it is like to have a loving Father. You flip your Bible back to Psalm 27, but see the words of Psalm 24. ‘Only those with clean hands and pure hearts can ascend the hill of the Lord’. How does God do that? That brings thoughts of Mary, your first dream and being escorted by her up the mountain. You certainly were far from ready!
Earlier when the doorbell rang the Lord had just showed you that Mary’s whispered message of ‘little foxes’ were not about the negative attitudes, behaviour and arrogance in those men, but a reflection of those things in your own heart. Desolate, you can see how your ‘stinking thinking’ has affected your actions and reactions. About to ponder that you hear a kindly response, “You are sometimes your own worst enemy” and realise despite that the Lord has been gracious to you in giving you three incredible dreams and insights into who He is. You think back to the people in churches which seemed more dead than alive, but question now, what would happen if they were given the opportunity to embrace the Lord more fully? Mary said it was your need to prove yourself to God that had aborted your second dream. Many people believe they serve the Lord by doing good, but is that too, a way of trying to prove themselves? You don’t want to judge, but you would like to understand. You don’t want to be one of those ‘little foxes’. If your sin is often unseen, insidious or innocuous you don’t want it to destroy and damage the Lord’s vine, aka His people and His church. At least knowing that you can be ready to turn from it.
In becoming a Christian it feels you take two steps forward and several back, although surprisingly the fire of His love did burn through your wooden heart for Rob. You need to keep that fire burning to get rid of the rubbish in your life, and like Moses seeing the burning bush be ready to listen and refine your thinking. Why are you so privileged? What do you have in your hand to use to serve Him? In that stillness He speaks, “You are called according to my purposes, it is early days, transformation takes time.”
Word: “…Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead, I press on towards what is ahead, I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 3:13-14 (NIV)
Worship “Give me your heart Lord”’ Ruth Fazal 4 mins